Been AWOL for a while, because things went sideways again. Denied an apartment because of "past history". (It seems like everything I try to do falls apart because of "past history" - things I didn't do, that my husband did, that I somehow always seem to take the damage for.) Have been moved to another shelter, where I have had a very hard time finding internet access, which is why I was AWOL.

Right after we left that place, my daughter's friend was killed in an accident. I tried to get her back to the area to go to the memorial service, but nothing I tried worked. I feel terrible about it. I did the best I could.

I have called HUD's district office about the problems I've had and am still having with the housing authority. They "investigated". How did they investigate? Basically, they called the housing authority and asked them if they did anything wrong. Of course, they said they didn't. Go figure.

Next step? Calling Washington DC to have them take a look at it. I also called and filed a formal complaint. I tried asking the fraud hotline to investigate me for fraud again. Last time they found no evidence that I'd done anything wrong. This time, they just gave me the number to file the complaint.

I refuse to shut up, back down. I told the district office that last time I was forced into going back because I couldn't find a place I could afford on my own, my husband tried to kill me (again), and that if I was forced to go back again and it is entirely possible that I could die, that it is like strapping me into the electric chair and not telling me when they're going to throw the switch.